Use this rich, reparative moisturizer on dry, achy and fungal foot conditions.
3 oz. calendula-infused olive oil 1/2 teaspoon thuja essential oil
(preferred) or plain olive oil 40 drops tea tree essential oil
3 oz. almond oil 1 teaspoon rosemary essential oil
2 oz. coconut oil 1 teaspoon wintergreen essential oil
1 oz. shea butter 9 oz. distilled water
1 oz. beeswax
Note: To make calendula-infused olive oil see Luscious Lotion 29.
Follow Directions for Creams. Makes 19 oz.
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